It’s tough when I thought maybe this time it could be different, but its just like how it was when we were kids.  I thought you could look at me in a different light but I guess I was wrong. I think that’s what hurts the most about this whole thing.

Your words don’t line up with your actions. And unfortunately, since I’ve been through this before, it doesn’t surprise me. I wanted you to be different this time. Why can’t you respect me? Is that a view on your perspective of me that will never change? All you do is hurt me. And it sucks. 

I’m so hard on myself. But I can’t not be

Sometimes I feel like because of the field I’m in, I’m unable to express my true thoughts and views on really anything and it sucks.

Fitting into a size four dress really boosted my confidence

Lana core has me in a chokehold

Recently I’ve been feeling better. Things are looking up and my mind is at ease

I wish I could have it all. Perfect job. Being close to my family. Living in CA with my boyfriend. But I can’t. I have to pick because life is full of hard choices.

If only I could have lived through Woodstock ‘69

Dreamland, Malibu CA

Fuck sippin imma down the whole bottle

The music I listen to is so not your thing

It’s kinda crazy isn’t it?

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(via ponderation)